I want to share my story with one hope in mind and that is to be able to motivate, give some support or advice to those that are considering wearing hijab or are thinking of it but not ready for it yet.
Hijab is not just a piece of cloth that you put on your head ( although that’s how I felt like before I ever put it on). It’s way more than that… Words cannot describe the meaning and the beauty of it, but I’m going to do my best to share that joy with you guys.
Growing up all my life in a non-Muslim nation and not being surrounded by many Muslims, I never thought of wearing the hijab. I knew I would wear it one day, but I never thought it would be so soon. I kept telling myself, ” when I get old and ugly then I will wear it.” I didn’t know the true meaning behind the hijab which is to guard our beauty and it’s an order from God ( Allah SWT). For those that say hair doesn’t make much of a difference then they are wrong! I used to be one of them so I’m not judging… I always got tons of compliments on my hair, although I never did anything to them, didn’t straighten them or curl them…I noticed what a huge difference it made when it was covered. But you might be thinking, ” how and when did you start wearing it ? ” or maybe ” what made you wear it?” Well, I’m about to tell you everything and feel free to ask any questions.
I always dressed modestly or at least tried my very best. I wore tops a size larger than my actual size, long sleeves, covered neck, scarf on my neck to cover the chest area if the shirt was tight, this was typically how I dressed, but it got to the point where my heart was asking for more. I started stressing over it but I didn’t know how to put it on or where to start. I was thinking about the reactions I would get from people around me and was afraid to face the world because I didn’t want to be judged by what’s on my head without anyone knowing who I am as a person and what my intentions are. I was scared, anxious, depressed and confused as it was very hard to take that step that I wanted to take so badly…
As I finished my second year in college, I told myself that I will wear a hijab before I turn 20. As the semester came to an end, I started wearing a hijab outside and before the month of Ramadan approached, I was wearing it all the time whenever I went out. I stuck to wearing it during the Holy month of Ramadan and I have to say that it’s a lot easier to do it during Ramadan than it is any other time of the year. Ramadan becomes a turning point for many Muslims around the world which is one of the many blessings that Holly month brings along. After the month of Ramadan ended, I was still getting used to people’s reactions and to be honest now it doesn’t matter because what I’m doing is not for people but it’s for my creator. I’m not going to lie, it takes time and commitment but you learn to appreciate it and it becomes part of you. Just remember to take one step at a time and don’t pressure yourself to the point where you are feeling depressed. Put your trust in Allah SWT and when the right time comes, you will put it on and you will know when that time comes!
I want people to understand that the hijab doesn’t make someone a better Muslim or person and it does not mean I’m better than a non-hijabi! Hijab is simply an order that came from Allah SWT and I would like to not question why we were asked to wear it, as I believe that only Allah SWT knows best what is best for His creations. I also believe that the hijab should not be forced upon a person, it should be a choice that a person makes as it’s between a person and God. I know many people would hate to hear this, but it’s the truth. Hijab is not just about covering your head and dressing modestly, it’s also about one’s actions, the way one speaks and one’s intentions. At the end of the day, everyone should focus on themselves, to better themselves and not point out who is doing wrong since every person will speak for their own choices and actions. The reason I say it should be a personal choice is that I hate to see people pressure those that don’t wear the hijab or tell them that they are not good enough of a Muslim for not wearing one. Why does it matter if someone wears a hijab or wears it in a super stylish way or if someone is wearing a turban? We need to focus on the fact that someone is actually trying at least to put the hijab on. You don’t know her struggles, you don’t know how she put it on and how hard it was for her to do so. So please, I ask of anyone who judges, before you judge to try to understand, put yourself in their shoes and before you say anything means or rude, remind yourself that only Allah SWT can judge and you are His creation so therefore you should not be judging! Be the inspiration and support and I guarantee you that it can inspire a person to want to better themselves by just watching your actions.
The last thing I want to talk about is feeling confident in your hijab. Find what works best for you and what you feel the most comfortable with. You can still be stylish, fashionable, be comfortable and feel confident with your hijab. I never really took my time to put outfits together but since fashion design has always been something I was interested in, it wasn’t too hard for me to put few things together to create a fashionable yet modest look. I never followed fashion trends because I had my own unique style that fits perfectly my personality and that’s what I felt the most comfortable in. I was tired of hearing what beautiful is considered by society so I liked to create my own definition of beauty and fashion which I got to say, it definitely works! My friends would think that I put my outfits together the night before for it to look nice but in reality, it was a last-minute thing that I would do in the morning.
Remember you are all beautiful and Allah SWT has created you in the best shape! 🙂